Well, words cant really express how I feel. But I would try my best.

At the start, you build me up saying such nice things to me, being close to me. Every night, we'd call each other till we sleep. You'll always wait for me to sleep but in the end ill always ask you to sleep first. You'll always ask me to talk about my past and you like all the stories I say. The way you say you're shy when you look at me, and when you say you are jealous of my eyes and everything. The way you fell alseep on me when you're tired. I fell head over heels for you. I did everything I could for you to feel loved. You told me how the guys before me were and how they did things for you but you didn't like them. You told me i was different from them & I believed you. I was happy that you said that. After so long i've just become another victim of your love. I thought i was different, guess not. I did so much for you, yet i was just taken for granted once again. I thought you were different. Guess not as well. I can understand how the guys before me felt now. 8 months we've been through it together. Suddenly, you just had to drop the bomb on me on the day that everyone would be happy for. Now that day has become a bad memory. Something i'll remember for life. That day is Valentine's Day. I bought you a nice guess bracelet. You took it and was happy, but when you went home, its a whole different story. You said one sentence which just killed everything " I only said i love you cause I don't want you to be sad" . Seriously? Did you ever think that after 8 months of that, i wont be sad. maybe if you said tt on e first few days i'd be okay but after 8 months of memory it kills. Though i thought i'll be over it, guess what i didnt. it took me 9 months. and now its a total of 1 year and 5 months of waiting. I never knew you were capable of doing this to me. You proved me wrong. I've been stupid all these while, why didnt i see this coming. I don't know why i've held on for so long knowing you don't give a shit. But i guess i can finally say im over you. I've heard you are very smitten and like guys easily. Guess i didnt believe tt earlier and you have btr eye candies as well. When your friends tell me that you really do love me, i wonder if they were all lying. How could you just one moment like and one moment don't. If you're going to be like this all the time, you're going to kill alot of guys heart. Well, i cant be bothered anymore. It has always been about you and never about me.


As of now, I've no intentions to let anyone into my heart for as long as I can. Who needs one anyways. Just study, work, and most impt of all Love God. Thats all i have to do in life. Yeah you might say it might get lonely, but what are friends for right? Its stupid to get hurt so many times. So just wait till e right time comes.
To all my young friends out there. Don't love someone just to fill that place in your heart for a certain time and then jump to another or just drop tt person away. Find the right one and stay with him/her. We're still young so to say.

These few days, I've been trying to put a mask on to hide my sad feelings. Hate it when sudden sad songs play everything just reminds me of you .

I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind, there will be a time for us to say goodbye
What a big surprise.

I'm not coming back around again.

I'm alone again. Where do I begin.
I'm not lost, I'm not gone, I haven't forgot.



P.S Thanks for cheering me up IDIOT. (: