Well , work has just been rubbish today . Its only my third day , and I don't really know how to do things perfectly. And they say do things slowly and right is better than rushing and wrong. Then I was doing 2 orders and I had to rush em. Then I get scolded for being slow. Wts? Here I am trying my best yet all they can do is just scold. That's the good life about being a manager/supervisor or whatever. scold all you want, who's going to disagree with you right? You've got everyone on your side, what've you got to be afraid of. You wouldn't care as you wouldn't see us or even have a bond with us. We're just servants to you. Treat us like dogs then just act like nth happen. Yeah why not ask us come your house wipe your shoes as well , unless you say even we can't do a proper job of wiping shoes. We aren't perfect like you. We're just trying our best to make you people feel happy. If it hurts to see me work, then might as well kill me , for I've tried so hard to do exactly what you said , but then always it ends up wrong cause someone else comes and show another way. So many things you can use to kill me there I bet , just take a knife and stab me in the heart, or just burn me with the popcorn oil. I'd even volunteer to put myself there for you to pour it. Watch me slowly burn to death , nice isn't ? Bet you all will be happy . I'd even write my will, to not place charges on you and forgive you, that way you can carry on with your lives and go ahead screwing other's lives. Its freaking irritating when one of you says to do this way and someone else scold you for doing it tt way, make up your bloody mind who am I supposed to listen to? Yeah I guess you'll say customers first. But don't place your fellow men's lives in stake just to achieve it. Sooner or later , karma will bite you. Its okay if you deem me as useless. I know I alr am , I'm just trying to fit in and help out,to me its not about the money, its about experience. If you don't pay me also nvm one, in the end I walk away with experience which helps my future. Just because your lives depend on this job, and your so high in this place , doesn't mean you can just make other people become your spawn. Yeah you might think I'm just another faggot who just likes to complain. But seriously I am not the kind to complain unless I'm emotionally distrupted. Maybe I'm just a noob, a person with no skills or talents what so ever, I know that about myself, sometimes I even wonder why the heck I join to gain experience. In the end its just useless cause I have no use for it, or should I say you have no use for me. I guess everywhere I go from here, its going to be the same. Everyone is going to be like you guys, that's why I don't have a place in this world. Haha I even burnt myself twice doing the stupid popcorn and I didn't even have time to run it under the water , i just had to bear with that pain till I ended work and place my hands in e water . I didn't even go for my breaks cause you people had no one doing the popcorns, or any backup . I skip my bloody breaktime cause I think its better spent helping out instead of eating . Didn't eat breakfast lunch or anything, I didn't even get to drink one cup of water. I dun want to take from there cause I feel like its bad , looking at the work I do, I bet you guys wouldn't even bother to give me plain water right? Cause I do such a superb job. They teach the others what to do while I was doing other stuff , den suddenly they ask me do, at least I know what to do by watching once before, c'mon if you guys don't wanna teach me, dun bother asking me to do , cause if I do wrong, you guys will scold like no tomorrow, and then, there was no oil, for popcorn. I wanted to go ask, but then they ask me rush and serve the customer, den aft tt I get scolded for not telling, and I'm like , I wanted to, would you prefer me walking around trying to figure out how to change the oil while I'm supposed to be serving the customer, no right? Customers first what. We always get blamed for things that did not happen on purpose. I felt like a piece of shit when tt happened, you expect so much from someone such as me, one look at me and you know that I'm useless alr. I told myself I'd be fun , but once you guys started talking to me about something. It wasn't intro , it was scolding. That's how you get to know your staff, you scold them eh, that way you'll remember someone , cause it's easier to remeber smth bad about someone than the good thing. That's just how humans are. We're just people without a sense of Love. Yeah you might be the top of the movie industry, but that wouldn't even hv been possible without people like us to be the foundation of it, we're like holding you guys up, and all you guys do is stand on us. Seems like you're only nice to people of your rank or standard, and we trainees are just a bag of crap that is at your disposal . Not good , throw away. Yeap that's how we are, a bag of rubbish. Seen the way you guys smile at others and we you give us the get out of my sight look , irony that the company says , must always smile. Sigh, it hurts to see that people are just placing others below them, we're all humans. We all have feelings. And I suppose you would go like " oh I'm sorry, do I look like I give a shit about your feelings?" that's how I you guys would reply me from the way I heard you speaking. Ahh well, in the end, its all my fault anyways right? Who can blame the upper ranks. They're the boss, they do whatever pleases them. Small fries like us , just get burnt and tasteless and hard . We don't stand a chance in society. Thanks so much for making me know about myself so much more. It really helps, now I know I wouldn't fit in.