Well , the days hasn't really been good for me lately ..
I am still stuck within my own world , i feel like being alone.
Well im still not used to my class yet. I still feel kinda weird.
I don't even know why i feel this way . I'm kinda lost.

How do you feel , when someone you know who once used to like you , just suddenly says she doesnt. and aft all those months you still think its not the truth , and everytime you wonder why is it that she said tt , why did it turn out this way , how come someone love you , and suddenly just say they don't. its kinda hard to understand. You wait so long , trying to salvage it, while she's just having fun with her life. You're no one to her anymore. Not even important as a friend. Not even as a good friend or a close friend. But she says you're a friend. And she doesnt even care for you like she does. She just seems so blur about everything, is it that you're just acting ? Or you just forgot everything about me and about us. It just goes to show much i don't mean to you. It also hurts to see how you happen to be treating some other guys like how you treated me, don't make them fall for you and then dump them like you did me. Not everyone will take it lightly against you. I'm trying my best to wait till you finish your school. But you're just not making it easy for me. Its like you're just keeping me on the hook. Sigh , please at least make an effort to show me that i'm worth smth to you. Cause i don't believe that you wouldnt have done all those things to me , if you didnt love me . Its something only a person does when they love someone. If you didnt love me , you wouldnt have even done it. Please... i know somewhere deep in your heart , your true feelings are just hidden by your fantasies. I'm not trying to say that im good or anything but, i don't think someone would love you as much as i do , the amount of sacrifice im willing to make for you isnt what others would do. I even put you first before my major exams. Thats just how much you meant to me. Making sure you're safe and okay, i don't need anything else, just knowing that i can keep you safe is my top priority. You're just everything there is to my life, without you its like its always empty. I just cant seem to find happiness in what i do with my life anymore. When you were in it , everything seemed so perfect. You were just perfect. I just need you back, just the way you are. I just wanna hold you close to my heart and feel your warmth. Knowing that you're right here with me. I'd take a bullet for you and i really mean it. When it comes to protection, i'd always be more than willing to take your place. I just cant stand to see you hurt yourself. Please, let things be how they used to be. I miss you so darn much. Why cant you see that I just love you so much but yet you choose to ignore it and hide your feelings. I'll wait no matter how long its gonna take. I just need you.

Forget all the reasons why it won't work , and believe the one reason why it might work .