Haizzz. Just woke up and i feel so fucked up . i hate when this feelings comes around. its there but i dont know whats the reason behind it. it just happens, just feel like letting it all out. dont know why i cry also , whats wrong with me...and how i thought my past was gone. i guess it still lives in me and its starting again. All these sorrows just built up inside. Even though ive got friends, i still feel all alone. There's only a handful that i know would be my friend for long time to come and that i can put my full trust in no matter what. i dont know whats going on right now, its like im living in my own world , my thoughts just going everywhere or maybe even blank i dont know ! Life is so damn stressful . I just feel like im missing out on something, when will this feeling stop . Oh well, ive gone through this for almost 7 years already . In school all i could do is to fake a smile . Everyone else is important before me. Im just so helpless and confused.
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I wish that you could end all this sorrows inside or are you the thing that im missing . Baby I love you and know that all i want is what is best for you . Not for me .