Did god made a mistake by putting me in this world . Well im sure he doesnt but i dont knw why i am here for. why did u made me this way . why do i feel this way so many times . and yup mommy , from today on . i wont spend money alr . not even for food . ill starve myself ! den im sure ull be so much happier . cuz she herself said that i sld strave . so i should listen what mom says right . hmm maybe i do smth to myself to make me rmb for life. hmm cut it out? burn the words onto myself . im still thinking . hmm actually e best way is to die. saves alot of trouble . all i am to this family is a burden . if i cant be good enuf for my family how can i be good for everyone else. now i know why people would hate me . they hate me becuz im me . everyone can hate me i dont mind . cuz i wanna be alone . i alr feel alone in this world . what difference does it make aniways . oh well . ill see what ill do. How i wish i could take my heart out .
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I just don feel right animore . im not worth . Not Good enuf for my family or You. I dont think ill ever be the man u wanted me to be . there's others out there who are much better . i dont wanna pull you down along with me . but i will still love ya .